dwelling together this summer(i am happy...)

sitting in the bus stop
i was wonderin where to drop by
remembering that night
that glorious night

when i lost my soul
without value or worth soul

then you came along
and tagged me while im writing this song
now i can see the clouds fading
while we were tirelessly running

"i really love this summer.
this strong rains shower"

suddenly she left me
the limbs i cant see
i started cutting my wrists
you stopped me said though the risks

"can i make it through?
this summers the best though

i wont forget her
but id rather forget than hear your cries
you opened my blind shut eyes
this is a not-so-good talk
and i should just talk the walk

but you showed me i can do better
and not just cry until later

thank you...my dear friend...

rather be dead than this(September sucks)

melting under the sun
i wish i could just kill myself and run
run off to a place better than this
what a unmistakable miss

cutting my fingers just to feel the real pain
getting what under the rain
writing blood on sheets of old paper
wrapping myself with electric tape

dead...
im so dead....
my heart...my lungs...and everything...
feels nothing....
dead...

your foot on my face
i know you were always that impossible to reach
i just lied to myself knowing
another hopeless fake reality worthless believing

im a unnoticed joke again
dead and humiliated
massively punctured upon my chest
i know this pain might not rest

dead...
and it was like yesterday you said you wont hurt me...
thanks....
i pity myself now....

when a dream turns to a nightmare

blood drips in from my forehead
covering my deaf ears
for im so tired hearing this lonely numb words
can you be concerned for a minute?

as i lay myself to death
i murmur this final breath
"stop this anguishing pain
subside this fierce storm
all these lies
all these cries
i want to die and stop this fairytale"

blood rolls to my lips
i like how blood tastes
all the times i tasted defeat
as i watch you rip my stout armor
crippled me and took my never obtained valor

the nightmares become more terrifying
as each day is passing
sweet feeling of pain in my lips
i need another pierce

il bleed to death
never seen or heard...
cover me now with your disgust and loathing hate
as i eat these final words that i should have done before
"im nothing...im nothing...
why did i ever believe i was equal
in your stand...in my hopeless vanishing feeling
that what i wanted can be had or will turn out for the best
turn out that im just kidding my self again..."

thanks for the poison

these scars are still painfully burning
and i fearlessly see you
can you see me too?
dont shut the door!!!please!!!

im running out of wasted time
and i know you never and will never be mine
to die by you is the best stupid thing
the agony wont make me scream

pain is taking over me
how can we ever be?
will it take hopelessly long?
i think i can stay a little more

if i was totally wrong
why didnt you say so?
this is what i get
to place broken self as bet

cry now my silent distressed angel
i know you're better off without a useless me
thanks for the poison
i'll lay happy and sarcastically smile on your lap
thanks for the poison

say goodbye

whats a lyrics without drummer?
whats a song without the listener?
would you know how good it was
or you would just let it all die in the crash

what do you expect from some one so stupid
while i hate myself,all i can feel is morbid
why do people hate us?
the music
the lyrics

that i wish i can just change for just one day
the blinded memory i wanted to
leave then music be
let the fires burn in me

all i ask is a small space i can move in
in this wild night that ive never seen
i dont know where to go
i dont know what to do
im fucking going crazy!!!

dreaming of the end to come sooner
stop wasting time and save it for later
to finally stop bother you
i know you always wanted me to go

im such a waste of time...of your precious time
doesnt matter how deep i breath
my lungs are all empty
im fucking going crazy!!!

let my fire disappear in the darkness
watch me scorch myself
and laugh your lungs out...cause im out of your life...

ignored(what the?)

do you still see me?
cause im left alone here beside the sidewalk
i wish youd notice im not beside you
lost and no where to go

mixtapes of my favorite bands
scream under my ears filled with sand
im going crazy you dont even know
geting deaf in the stereo

cant you see me dying while wasting my time
standing unashamed like dumb mime
the hurtful words you said like your pastime
will be carved in my lifetime

i didnt expect any symphathy from you
cause you seem very happy like you always do
i feel an unbearable pain inside my chest
i feel so numb though theres blood dripping from my wrist

i cant beleive you just dumped me like this...
i feel so lonely..i didnt meant to be such a piss
come and kill me already will ya
come and stab me already will ya

dont worry i wont blame you ever
i cant anyways....

another notepad complain(the pain didnt subsided)

its been a month of two
since the last time i heard from you
how are you today?
bet your much too busy to even find the time anyway
so i dont bother saying "hi"
all im so fond of doing is cry

letting you go is such a suicide

i wanted to call but i broke my phone
i wanted to see but i know you wont let me
i wanted to run away but i always come back
i wanted to cry but my eyes are black

please dont worry about me
ive been always fine being alone as anyone can be
not talking to you hurts a lot
but being ignored and laughed at is killing me
you took a piece of me and left
now all whats left is dead empty shell

letting you go is such a suicide

you said you'll never leave me
you said you'll nevr love any one but me
you said you'll help me make this last
now i was thinking i wasnt the only one you said that to

im wondering what made you hate me
i know im as ugly as anyone can be
but i belive every word you said to me
that your not pretty and im not ugly
like it was really said honestly


im missing you cause im not getting better everyday
alone by myself...laughing sarcastically
all i can say is i need to get over you already
but each hour that passes by make me kill myself early
and watch myself in front of the mirror bleeding accidentally

im growing crazier each day that goes
mourning for the life and love we used to know
i wasnt really prepared for anything like this
wasnt really expecting youd find some one better
now i see your happy with your new lover
dont worry il try killing myself sooner

anyways im just a stupid acquaintance you used to know
heart ache and pain i cant let go
until i forget the girl that used to keep me alive
well seems like im not going to survive...

letting you go is such a suicide