another notepad complain(the pain didnt subsided)

its been a month of two
since the last time i heard from you
how are you today?
bet your much too busy to even find the time anyway
so i dont bother saying "hi"
all im so fond of doing is cry

letting you go is such a suicide

i wanted to call but i broke my phone
i wanted to see but i know you wont let me
i wanted to run away but i always come back
i wanted to cry but my eyes are black

please dont worry about me
ive been always fine being alone as anyone can be
not talking to you hurts a lot
but being ignored and laughed at is killing me
you took a piece of me and left
now all whats left is dead empty shell

letting you go is such a suicide

you said you'll never leave me
you said you'll nevr love any one but me
you said you'll help me make this last
now i was thinking i wasnt the only one you said that to

im wondering what made you hate me
i know im as ugly as anyone can be
but i belive every word you said to me
that your not pretty and im not ugly
like it was really said honestly


im missing you cause im not getting better everyday
alone by myself...laughing sarcastically
all i can say is i need to get over you already
but each hour that passes by make me kill myself early
and watch myself in front of the mirror bleeding accidentally

im growing crazier each day that goes
mourning for the life and love we used to know
i wasnt really prepared for anything like this
wasnt really expecting youd find some one better
now i see your happy with your new lover
dont worry il try killing myself sooner

anyways im just a stupid acquaintance you used to know
heart ache and pain i cant let go
until i forget the girl that used to keep me alive
well seems like im not going to survive...

letting you go is such a suicide